Legacy.

I am graduating high school in 3 weeks! Words cannot express my excitement. Although it is true that I am super sentimental and that I will in fact miss certain people and parts of my life at Smithtown Christian School, I am more than happy to embrace a new adventure. Now in tradition when people leave somewhere they usually hope to leave some sort of legacy. Everyone wants to be remembered. All people want to be noticed, to be acknowledged, to know that that their time wherever they were was not in vain and served some sort of purpose. I have gone to this school for 8 years and do hope that I have left some sort of legacy, and I thought about what I would want to be remembered for. 

I want to be remembered as someone who loved people when no one else would. I want to be the that girl who put everyone else above herself, yet they all looked up to her. I want to be the one who seemed like they had it all together, but when you got to know her…she was approachable, down-to-earth, someone you can identify with. I want to leave a legacy of a girl who pointed to Christ and relied on Him for everything. She was in love with Christ and strong in Him and who He is. She was strong in who she was, too. She was confident not because she was a great person but because she served a great God. She was someone who was always happy and friendly.I want to have inspired someone, helped someone. 

What will I actually be remembered for? I will probably be known as a smiley person who was on Undignified, who was the art teacher’s daughter. I was a nice girl, and probably impacted the lives of those in the grades closest to me, but eventually I will be merely a face in a yearbook. In the end, it doesn’t matter if the whole school remembers me. Even if I had helped one person in whatever, then my time here has been worthwhile. 


Woman of God.

Being a Christian, a church girl, I hear the phrase “man of God” or “woman of God” all the time and it is someone that all of us Christians strive to be, but what exactly is a man/woman of God? There is probably some sort of Webster’s list as to what it truly means to be one of those people.  When thinking of my own perspective, I thought of the Christian women who have influenced me, who I admire. I think of the women in my life who encourage me in both words and actions to go deeper in my friendship with Christ. 

To be a woman of God is to be fully immersed in who He is. The way she carries herself is with humility, yet confidence, for she knows who God has created her to be. A flood of light and warmth exudes from her, and when in her presence, one feels at peace. A woman of God is utterly and completely in love with Jesus, the Lord and Savior. Together they share an intimate friendship, filled with constant communication. When her circumstances are anything but ideal, she comes to Him for strength. He is her refuge, in whom she can find rest. 

So after defining who a woman of God is to me, I take a look at these fine qualities. How much of these do I possess? How much do I gush to my Best Friend about my day? The idea that the Creator of lavender and sunsets and British accents wants to spend some one-on-one time with me so that I could get to know him (and quite a bit about myself too) despite this grab-and-go culture i have dug myself into is for sure odd. Why on Earth would God want to give me joy and peace in the ugly days, despite the fact that I can’t even clean my room, forget give Him all the goodness and gratitude that he deserves? Ah, yes, this is the sweet sound of His grace and love! May we all rest in his everlasting goodness, and grow in Him. 

Be blessed! 


Psalm 13.

"How long, Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me?How long must I wrestle with my thoughts, struggle with anguish in my soul, and day after day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me? Look on me and answer, Lord my God. Return the sparkle to my eyes, or I will sleep in death, and my enemy will say, “I have overcome him,” and my foes will rejoice when I fall.But I trust in your unfailing love;my heart rejoices in your salvation, for you have rescued me.I will sing the Lord’s praise,for he has been good to me.”-Psalm 13, NIV and NLT

I do not have a favorite verse, that is for sure. How could one possibly decide, when each verse refreshes my soul at different points in my life? However, I would have to say that I do love the Psalms so dearly. It is probably my favorite book of the Bible! Last week I came across this chapter, and I could not believe that I had never seen it before! 

This year has been full of challenges. Many times I feel alone, and I often wonder where God is in my situation. I know He’s with me, but the question of, “Why won’t You intervene?” comes up. Throughout the day, negative thoughts fill my head, and hurts reside deep within. I get awfully tired of the trials, of the pain. Why won’t the Lord just take it? Why must I constantly feel as if the devil has a hold on me, so spiritually attacked? Am I defeated? When will I finally see the works of my Jehovah Nissi?  I yearn for the sheer happiness of sweet summertime, back when life was seemingly good, when I had the “sparkle in my eyes”.

I must believe that He restores, however. I praise Him for the victory that is yet to come. Satan has no power over me, as long as I call upon the name of Jesus. I trust in His love, His love that sustains me. I trust in His faithfulness. My heart, with hurt in its stitches, still leaps with joy, for I know of the hope to come! God my victory will surely rescue me from the enemy! While I’m waiting on the fruit of His promises, I shall sing His praises. He is good, and He works everything out for my good as well! 


#mixedtextures for today’s #coasttocoastchallenge! Knits, lace, denim, and leather. @c2c_central

#mixedtextures for today’s #coasttocoastchallenge! Knits, lace, denim, and leather. @c2c_central


Jesus, why did you let me take this class if I didn’t even get to apply to Columbia? Dear Lord, help me, because I really don’t wanna do this. #APbio #overachieverproblems #dearlordhelp #loser #stupidbrainiac #lazysenior #wannaenjoylife!

Jesus, why did you let me take this class if I didn’t even get to apply to Columbia? Dear Lord, help me, because I really don’t wanna do this. #APbio #overachieverproblems #dearlordhelp #loser #stupidbrainiac #lazysenior #wannaenjoylife!


Why I’m reluctant to flip January over. #India #tajmahal #tiger #elephant #travel #wanderlust #calendar #January #2013 #sofast #slowdowntime #newmonth #indiaplease

Why I’m reluctant to flip January over. #India #tajmahal #tiger #elephant #travel #wanderlust #calendar #January #2013 #sofast #slowdowntime #newmonth #indiaplease


17 years of cheesy smiles.
#amireallythatoldalready?

17 years of cheesy smiles.
#amireallythatoldalready?


On My Own
Samantha Barks
Les Misérables (Highlights From The Motion Picture Soundtrack)

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On My Own - Les Miserables (Samantha Barks)

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This is so great. Everything I care about in one little video.


#Tuscarora #snow #beautiful #tgr #gazebo #winter #girl #magical #greatday #sopretty #fresh

#Tuscarora #snow #beautiful #tgr #gazebo #winter #girl #magical #greatday #sopretty #fresh